in no intention to compete
For the past few weeks, i've been listening to all the things that i didn't want to listen. things i didn't wish to listen, simply said. you can do whatever that you wish to do. i'll handle mind and you handle yours. i do what i wish to do. you can spend all you want. once in a lifetime. i know but it does not mean you have to spend all your money right? and they said, you know, i bought this for $$$$, i bought that for $$$$$$. who the hell cares right? oh my goodness, i have to go through it all over again. i thought it's over.
status? sampai ke mana?
i would rather spend the money for something more important. serious.
our needs.
I received my first birthday present today from Aisah. ok i know it's early. Thank you. I was greeted by the present and the letter which motivated me to go through the difficult moments to come. InsyaAllah.
I am in the midst of clearing my table. It looks much better now.
For the last two mornings, my little princesses stood at the gate to see me off to work. How sweet. As i walked towards the lift, they shouted, "Bye, Umie Atie!" They are naughty...but lovable kids. When they're around, you wish they're not there cos they make you go crazy. When they're not around, you will miss them somehow. On one occasion, Nurul said this to me, " Kakak sayang Uncle Haf, Kakak tak sayang Umie Atie!" i can't help but laughed cos the way she said it was really really cute.
Results were out just now. My girl did well and she's moving on. Alhamdullillah. i was so happy for her. I had no worries for her grade in Malay cos I had so much faith in her. i was more worried on whether she is able to move on to secondary school or not. She did it! Congratulation girls for making it to the next phase of life! For us, we'll try to do even better next year. I have faith in you Aisah!
ok time to continue with my spring cleaning!!!
on a holiday mood
i am on a holiday mood. since last week. practically did nothing with them. was really busy and tired with the Deepa-Raya concert. had a meet the parents session. met most of my P1 and P2's parents. i was a bit tense at first but managed it quite well. some parents brought food for me. i even got nasi lemak from one of the student's mum the next day. it was really nice of them.
planning seminar will start tomorrow till fri. i am going to clear my messy table soon. only God knows how messy my table is. i am in the mood of throwing away my things.
this dec...i shall make myself free. so i can catch up with the chicas, naz and others. i need some free time for us as well.
so when are you going to bring me for a swim? cycling? jogging?
we have been planning these activities but didn't have the time to carry it out.
soon ok?
i'm longing for some good long talk with you....
practical
some of the people around me adviced me to buy the things bit by bit. so it won't be rushing. i guess so. and we agreed. we sat down and told each other what we want. we want to be practical so we're buying each other stuffs that are of use to us. azza would agree with me. kan kan kan? so let's be practical. sesiapa yang nak cakap," eh asal beli ni? asal tak beli better ones or should i say branded ones?" pegi lah mampos. the word is practical. beli mahal2 nanti tak pakai. buat pe? betul tak?
i haven met bibik. need to meet her soon.
going jb this dec again. so kakak, tolong hantar!!
azza, do you want to become my personal assistant? you're disgustingly neat and organised. i am sure you can help me. amacam?
julie, i know i can't disturb you.
my chicas?
better
a lot of things to do this week. in fact, there were a lot of things to do for the past few weeks. been lacking of sleep. I've not been eating properly. No appetite. My mind is always on work. worst still, my laptop died on me. had to go haf's place to do my work. i broke down that day. He took me for a walk and made me feel better. yesterday was hell. i worked non stop. Aisah brought me food but i didn't have the time to eat. Checking on me once in a while to make sure i was ok. Aisah has been the one who's making me sane at work. Making me calm every now and then. Teaching me a lot regarding work and life. Never fail to ask me to turn to HIM if i have any difficulty. i always do. Haf never fails to ask me to do the same thing.
I met her yesterday. i was so much calm in there. everything went well. Alhamdullillah.
Thank you...
for making me strong and a much better person.
neverending
i woke up this morning not feeling good. in fact, i haven't been feeling that good these few days. maybe because of the work. a lot of things on my mind. targets to meet. work review to be completed. training the girls for the concert. i wish i could leave all these behind and have some private moments with you. just the two of us. strictly no work...on my part that is. you would never bring work home. i know. i promised myself not to bring my work home but i did. i always did. it seems neverending. i'm tired. tired of thinking. tired of planning what to do next. it goes on and on. i wish i could end my day with you beside me. i know you would sing me to sleep and i know i would sleep peacefully. i wish i could start my day with you beside me cos i feel so much secure with you around. i know you would give me hugs and tell me that everything is gonna be alright. cos i know you would do anything to make me feel better. feel so much better.
i need the beach. i need those long walks with you.
