29 hours
I started off the day as per normal yesterday morning. was really looking forward to working because i wanted to end the day fast so that i can enjoy my weekend. Furthermore, i was looking forward to celebrating mum's birthday. Started off my day quite well although i had to run up and down from the ML Room to the Staff Room and to the ML Room again. It's a form of exercise though...
Met Haf after work. Went to Toa Payoh Hub to get mum a birthday cake. I bought munchy donuts as well. Sis bought food - nasi briyani and satay.
Went home and had dinner with the whole family. Bro was working. Everyone was eating happily and that includes mum. She even had her second serving. She was smiling all the time. She also told Haf that she has been eating and eating these few days and that's a good sign.
She cut the cake i bought her. She was smiling again. I knew she was happy, having her husband, children and grandchildren with her on her birthday. She turned 54 yesterday.
All went perfectly well until she laid down on her bed and started shivering all of a sudden. She called out to me asking me to hug her. The blanket didn't do any good to her. She vomited everything that she ate. She went to the toilet cos she had a bad tummy ache. When i helped her to her room, she collapsed. Shouted for my dad. Dad was in the midst of praying. We carried her to her bed.
Her body was very warm. She refused to go to the hospital. We let her sleep. She was still shivering.
I was on the laptop when she said she wanted to go to the toilet. She stood up quickly and i was glad i was fast enough to grab her arm in case anything happens to her. Just as i grabbed her arm, she collapsed again. This time i shouted for my bro. Bro and Dad ran in and i could her their voices breaking. I cried. She dirtied the bedroom cos she could hardly stand and move. We cleaned her up in the bedroom. Wanted to carry her to the bathroom but she seemed to have a mild fits. maybe due to her body temperature. This time i couldn't help it but cry again when i looked at her state. She was weak. really weak. My heart sank deep deep down...
I gathered enough courage to get her cleaned up in the room with the help of bro and dad of cos. Ambulance was on the way at this time.
We followed her in the ambulance....
When we reached, found out that her body temp had reached 40. we waited for her to be examined.
When the doctor came to talk to us the first time, she said her blood pressure was really2 low and that she had high fever. These may dur to some infection but they were still looking for the areas infected.
we waited again...
The doctor came the secongd time.
This time, she said,"Your mum is not doing very well. Her blood pressure is still very2 low and her temp is still very high despite the antibiotics given. She might be admitted to the ICU."
I couldn't take it anymore and i broke down.
Dad tried to comfort me. He told me not to regret cos we've been taking care of her. We have done all we could.
"Kita berserah. Bukan kita tak usaha. Kalau kita tak usaha, kita semua dosa. Kalau sampai ajal dia, dia pergi jugak. Satu hari nanti kita semua balik jugak kat Allah."
i was really sad. She was looking well at one moment and the next moment she was weak.
We waited again....
Dr Phoon came and talked to us. She told us that mum had blood infection due to that line inserted at her arm. They have taken it out by then. Told us to be patient cos they were trying their best. She said, "If her condition remains the same, we'll admit her to the ICU, if not she'll be admitted to the high dependency ward."
Waited again...
She was admitted to HD ward. I was relieved a bit. When she came out of the Emergency Ward, she looked a bit better but still unstable. She had difficulties breathing. She had difficulties talking as well.
Wanted to cry again when i saw her but told myself not to. I kissed her before i left with Dad. Bro stayed with her. That was already 6 plus. this morning.
Sis fetched us. Went home and cleaned the house. it was in a mess. Sis helped. Dad helped too.
After the cleaning the house and mopping the floor, i slept. That was already 9. woke up at 10.30. I didn't sleep for a whole 24 hours and i dunno why i can't get to sleep now.
29 hours. i still can't sleep.
Anyway, Happy Birthday Mum and Get Well Soon...
Praying...........
