kids and random
yesterday, as i was walking to the class..i saw the lights were switched on... so i assumed that my girls were in the class. when i stepped into the class, the class were so quiet and guess what...my girls were reading story books and there was not even a slightest sound from any one of them.
then i saw their homeworks on my table...neatly placed side by side...
i couldn't help it but to say...."WAAAAAAH!!! baiknya awak semua..."
they gave me a smile....
so i continued..."kalau hari2 macam ni kan bagus...saya gembira, awak pun gembira kan??"
they smiled...i smiled...
They made my day and for a moment my stress went away...
...........and now the stress
i have so much to do but i don't know where to start. i have written down on the postits just so that i won't forget the things that i have to do...
on top of all that...mum's admitted to the hospital..hours ago....i think she has grown thinner...it hurts me to see her in pain but there were times that she would hide it but i could see it on her face...
i won't be seeing her today...i hope i can tomorrow...
thoughts
There are things that u just don't want to know...Cos when u hear it from someone else or maybe happen to find out(God is great), u'll get a high degree of heartache. and you start to think whether you're the cause of the things that are happening and everyone starts to take the blame....
you tried your very best to search deep within the roots only to find out that it was afterall a small matter...or maybe a tiny matter...and it got everyone involved. right up to innocent parties.
U had bad dreams...u wake up...not knowing what is in store for you everyday..waiting anxiously what is going to happen next..
U pray and pray that everything will go smoothly...cos you know you are here not to compete..just to fulfill your dreams....
jeritan sepi
From today onwards, i DO NOT WANT to watch this drama. I watched the drama for the first time last week and my tears flowed like nobody's business.
I watched it again just now...i felt very sad...i am still feeling sad...i dunno why...
whenever i look at the actress, she reminds me of mum. The way she talks, the way she walks (now that mum walks slowly) and everything....
It hurts me...to see her being treated that way although it's just a story...
but i guess there are people out there who treat their parents that way...
It's a good show...but i can't bring myself to watch again....
just for the record....i love you, mum and dad....a lot...
